please, someone, remind me why we live here??
I have been feeling very 'melan cally' (to quote my latest favorite cartoon, Mastermind) lately.
As in, pretty unmotivated to do much of anything.
Okay, REALLY unmotivated to do much of anything.
... except each chocolate.
Lots and lots of chocolate.
And then write in my book about how not to eat lots and lots of chocolate...
And drive through the sandy/muddy-colored-snow filled streets
and try to envision that there really is some semblance of green buried somewhere underneath the 3 feet of snow on our lawn.
And walk outside only to have my lungs burn and nostrils freeze together and feel my baby's whole body go rigid and her tears freeze.
And try to get creative with the kids and do a Valentines Day craft...
... which bombed...
They looked NOTHING like the magazine picture!
... including the happy smiling child - I guess that's why they only had one child working in the picture... trying to do it with 5 became a battle of "she took my spot!" "He just shoved me!" "Hey, I wanted that piece of yarn!" "eewww, this is too goopy! mom, you do it!"
(at least I tried??!)
And having the spewing forth of germs make their rounds again and again through the family.
(I don't think I can change one more 'spewy' diaper (and clothes, and blankets) without losing it, folks!)
I am really, really, REALLY, missing my family right now.
I miss fun weekend trips
And late night talks
And laughing so hard our cheeks hurt
And introducing new 'legendary' stories that make me laugh just by thinking about them
(thop waffing at me, I'm sthill weely mad at woo!... Honk, bonk, and toot... oh the list goes on!)
And just plain being surrounded by people that know me in and out
And still love me anyway.
... even when they send us off with the ROOSTER!!
(we really did almost turn around when we found it!!)
Is it bad that I am just plain sick of trying to make new friends in this revolving door city,
especially when I know so many will be leaving so quickly
And we'll still be here, chipping away at the snow and ice
And spending every cent of extra money on trips back home to see family...
and actually making that happen usually takes planning of epic proportions (and months of advanced vacation day-counting-and-submitting-for-approval groveling)
Nope, I'm not bitter.
not bitter at all.
Just a wee bit chilly
And a wee bit melan cally
but other than that..
It's just another gray day in paradise :)